Until no becomes yes

At my age(which is old!), I still have not gotten used to receiving an answer of "No." I do not like it. There is no way to sugar coat it or make it easier, no is not an easy answer. My latest no came yesterday. I had applied for an IT position at OU many months ago. I had interviewed for the position twice and I was excited about the possibilities this job presented. However, yesterday I got an e-mail from OU saying I was not the candidate they picked for the job. The e-mail itself was very nice and said some wonderful flowery stuff about me and wished me the best of luck in the future. But the bottom-line was I did not get the job! Poo! I am approaching the eighth month since I was laid off. I cannot believe it! It all seems like a dream, like I am in some kind of a fog. Like I will wake up at some time and everything will be normal(whatever normal is!). Last night I was depressed about the whole thing. I had thought in the back of my mind that this would be the job. It was exciting. It would be fun. It presented challenges. I would get to be at all of the OU football and basketball games!!! It would pay well. However, this was not the path that God chose for me. He has not chosen the easy path for me, but a path that makes me rely completely on Him. I have taken more steps of faith over the last eight months than maybe ever before. A step of faith being making a decision and not knowing what the consequences will be or how I will be able to accomplish it. I am in God's Hands. I am walking by faith, trusting only in Him that He will lead me where He wants me to be. At times I feel stretched thin, like I am about to snap. Thankfully, God is always there. Yes I got a no. And no I do not know what is next. But yes, I will trust in God until no becomes yes.