Sick...and tired

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.  I have been sick on and off for over 9 days.  After a while it begins to wear on you!  However, I cannot say that it has all been bad.  On Wednesday evening I was laying on my bed listening to worship music and in spite of the fact that I horrible, it turned into an amazing time of praising God.  During that time God convicted me of several sins in my life; that I was acting selfishly toward my family and that I was holding back and not surrendering all of my being to Him.  God also affirmed to me again His desire for me to lead worship.  The sickness itself has been a trial that I will be glad to move beyond but I would not trade the 15 minutes I shared in communion with God for being well without it.  God has used sickness in my life to speak to me on many occasions.  Jesus said to Mary and Martha in John 11 that their brother's sickness would not end in death but it was for the glory of God.  That strikes me odd because we know Lazarus did die and Jesus raised him from the dead.  However, I believe that Jesus was referring to the purpose of the sickness.  It's purpose was not death, the purpose of Lazarus being sick was to glorify God.  It is amazing to me what God can be glorified through.  He can be glorified I death, in life, in sickness, in health, in so many areas where you would say, "There is no way good could come from this!"  But good does come from what is bad.  God is glorified in the worst of circumstances.  My sickness is really not that bad in comparison.  What I am really grateful for is that God is not absent, regardless of my circumstances.  He remains faithful and desires to be with me, always!  I will never be sick and  tired of God's incredible love.  Thank you Jesus!