Starting to surface
Tuesday I started subbing at Santa Fe South HS. It was quite unexpected! I was not prepared mentally or physically and quite honestly I had a number of other things that I felt like needed my attention. However, God does not always work according to our schedule, HaHa! I came in on Tuesday and felt like I was drowning nearly all day. It was one of the most challenging days I have ever encountered. It definitely pushed me way beyond myself. I saw my need for God and His spirit to direct me more clearly than I had in a long time(maybe ever). I found myself constantly crying out to God for direction, for provision, and for favor with the students. My desire in coming in was to really make an impact in the lives of the students I interact with. I am basically volunteering my time, so I am not motivated out of financial gain. I had many other things I could have done this week, so I am finding it hard to justify why I agreed to do this other than wanting to be obedient to God.
I have learned over the course of the four days that there are a lot of really good kids at this school. Many of them are eager to learn and are serious about what they are doing. There are some that are here only to have fun. They are the party animals, loud and not focused on their work. They just want to talk or surf the internet or sleep or do something other than work. I cannot help but wonder if they are masking some deeper problem. I wonder if there is some sort of hurt that is behind all of the acting out.
It has been very interesting listening to all of the teachers talk in the breakroom. Some of them are genuinely interested in the students, some of them are fed up with them. They have been offended by the "party animals" and have had enough. They have somewhat given up hope and are just hanging on. I did meet one teacher that is making a difference. His name is Chauncey Shillow. We met in the breakroom on Wednesday and after we had talked for a while he asked if he could pray for me! Amazing. We prayed right there in the breakroom. It was awesome and just the encouragement I needed that day. He also told me I could sit in with him at anytime to observe his class. I thank God for him, for sending someone across my path at the right time to encourage me. God is so gracious.
I still do not know what impact my time here will have. What I do know is that I am being obedient and that God will bless my obedience.
I have learned over the course of the four days that there are a lot of really good kids at this school. Many of them are eager to learn and are serious about what they are doing. There are some that are here only to have fun. They are the party animals, loud and not focused on their work. They just want to talk or surf the internet or sleep or do something other than work. I cannot help but wonder if they are masking some deeper problem. I wonder if there is some sort of hurt that is behind all of the acting out.
It has been very interesting listening to all of the teachers talk in the breakroom. Some of them are genuinely interested in the students, some of them are fed up with them. They have been offended by the "party animals" and have had enough. They have somewhat given up hope and are just hanging on. I did meet one teacher that is making a difference. His name is Chauncey Shillow. We met in the breakroom on Wednesday and after we had talked for a while he asked if he could pray for me! Amazing. We prayed right there in the breakroom. It was awesome and just the encouragement I needed that day. He also told me I could sit in with him at anytime to observe his class. I thank God for him, for sending someone across my path at the right time to encourage me. God is so gracious.
I still do not know what impact my time here will have. What I do know is that I am being obedient and that God will bless my obedience.
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